"Lord, help me to hang in there. I can't quit. Please help me." How many times I prayed that same prayer for years, during my husband's illness.
My husband had Parkinson's and Alzheimer's diseases and I was losing my sight. It was so hard to wait on him for all of his needs when so many times I walked by faith and not by sight. I witnessed many miracles during my husband's illness and death. I'm so thankful that I had Jesus helping me and letting me lean on Him. I would never have survived if He had not been with me. I call myself a survivor ~ one of the few things that I brag about that could only happen with God's help. At the worst time in my life, the following became so popular. I'm sure you are familiar with it.
One night, I had a dream that I was walking along the beach with the Lord, and across the sky flashed scenes from my life. For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand. One belonged to me; the other to the Lord. When the last scene of my life flashed before me, I looked back at the footprints in the sand. I noticed that many times along the path of my life, there was only one set of footprints. I also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in my life.
I questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You, You would walk with me all the way but I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why, at times when I needed You most, You would leave." The Lord replied, "My precious child. I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you saw only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."
I don't know who the author is but I wish I did for I would love to share with him or her how much that writing meant to me. I will admit that even now, after all these years, I have to stop writing and wipe away the tears as I reread this.
I would also like to share with you another message that helped me become a survivor. This is another "author unknown."
When things go wrong as they sometimes will
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low, and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tints of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar
So stick to the fight when you are hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit!
The thing that kept me going was my faith that God gives strength to the weak and power to the tired and weary.